Wondering what
she thinks about
when nights, and
days stay longer
than expected.When she wakes,
and wants skin
on skin before
the phone starts
to ring and the
rooster, eats
his words.During afternoons
covered in rain or
quiet drives to
somewhere that
means nothing.Wondering, if I
fit between those
places. But, thinking
hurts and the real
answer might disappoint.
Words keep slipping off your tongue, but i urge you to bite it til it bleeds. Because whats done is done, and it will never be unseen…
Stop trying to control things that I can’t
And let go of the people who have done the same to me
I love you more than I could ever convey
So much more sorry than I could ever say
But I will keep fighting and changing everyday
Because I know next to you is where I’m supposed to lay …
Within our house of glass
I have made peace with my demons
Vowing to never indulge in their ways again
Yet like a bird on a window pane
They remain caged in your mind
Wanting to be set free
But can’t be let go due to the rot
Rot that I caused and set free
The same rot that you contracted
And leaves you unable to love freely.
I prefer to remain on the hinge of disaster And unexplainable happiness. Then To Completely Submerge myself in either. I believe that without you i can achieve all things but never be satisfied. For the hunger for your kiss and touch has been implanted in my bones since birth. You are my nightmare, my happiness, my sadness,my anger, and my lust. You are my everything, And i know no boundaries when it comes to keeping you in my life.
Of all the things I have said
And all the things I have done
The most profound are the things I have not
Tell me the story of you being wronged
And ill call the kettle black
Omission of the truth gets you no where
And i think its about time you knew that
So slither back into the hole you ascend from
And give your life a good hard look
Take this as you will but you’re a fucking crook
Think twice before you act-once before you speak
Cause i have NO problem sending your ass up a creek
Lord have mercy on my soul
For i know what its like on the Devils throne
to be continued…
Iv taken for granted everything in my life iv been given, but i wont waste another day on myself. This happened sometime around midnight. When i completely stepped away from my body, and just let my selfish needs be. Cigarette in hand, peace in my heart. I No longer leave a bad taste in my mouth. I no longer taste the filth and disgrace that i was. For at that moment i knew what it was to live and love, and that our dreams coincide. Come back to me, Ill do better this time i swear…
You came back into my life like a flood.
Emotions of a past life, i fought so hard to get over.
Iv raised what was not my own, and i loved her like she was.
Month I without you:Remorse|Relization|Deppresion
Month II without you:Drinking|Deppresion
Month II.5without you:Exceptance|Realization
Month III with out you:Living Lost
The past 2 nights with you:Loving|Living|Remembering
Today without you:Loving|Remembering|Longing|Lusting
I know your mind is heavy, and you need more time to clear it.
Ive hurt you so much in the past i honestly don’t blame you.
I guess its only fair i taste my own medicine.
I Love you so much,I always have,I always will,I never won’t
I wish you couldn’t hurt me this bad.
I wish i never hurt you in the first place.
Life is never perfect Nor is it ideal With this being said as long as the people in it make you happy It’s always good
